I was supposed to update this a few times with numerous things but I just never really got around to doing it.  I originally wanted to make a big blog entry about my summary over my ‘VEDAISSOL’, but by the end of April I was so exhausted I didn’t want to discuss anything related to that matter whatsoever.
It was an interesting month, and there were some highs and lows, and a lot of things that bothered me.  Something in this month happened for the first time that in close to 3 years posting youtube videos, I was never phased by.  I actually was hurt by some people’s comments.

NEVER EVER have I even flinched over any hater comments.  You can call me a pansy fag Irish scum dickhead whatever till your heart DESIRES, but if you say you’re ‘disappointed in me’, or think I ‘failed’. That’s horrible.
The thing with VEDA is that it was essentially apart of my routine for a month, so you did get to be a part of my life for that month, and some people were shocked to think I wasn’t shooting rainbows and leprechauns out of my mouth all the time.  One thing that bugged me is that people didn’t grasp the difference between tiredness and sadness.  Probably 1/2 of my videos in April I had to film very late at night, and after a long day, you would expect to be tired.  I was most of the time.  I would never make a video if I was sad, I don’t feel the need to express my sadness in my youtube videos, because I wouldn’t want people seeing me upset, as it would possibly rub off other people.  Why would you want watch videos of a sad person anyway?!

Anyway yes, exhausted Adam + the thought of people looming over my profile refreshing until it was 12am and posting comments saying I failed and they were disappointed = All VEDA enjoyment taken away.  I finished the project though, and that’s it.  I’m happy and I appreciate everyone that followed me for the month.

For anyone who watched the last 2 (?) videos of VEDA you would have remembered I did a show for the BBC.  I didn’t tell anyone about it, but the first day of filming was the last day of VEDA, and at that time I was going through a bit of a frenzy.  The first day of filming I really didn’t enjoy.  I REALLY REALLY DIDN’T ENJOY.  The format of the show really didn’t fit me at all (but I accepted the work because, who turns down work from the BBC?!), and at parts I did feel like I was being a tad used/humiliated.  At the end of the day it got to the point were I was questioning if I really wanted to go down this field of work.  I continued on though and went for the 2nd day of filming.  It was a lot better, because there was some form of direction and we all knew what we were doing.  I just treated the first day as a bad day and hoped for the best.  It was better though.  I did get my own dressing room though!  With my name on the door and everything! No gold star though, SIGH.

So yeah, I got copy of the DVD and took a few screencaps for you to see.  You’ll never see this aired nor will I show you the actual footage, so be happy of the caps, haha.

This is a part of the titles of the show, we were asked to look mean and moody.  We laughed afterwards at how hilariously similar it is to some X-Factor boyband cut sequence. Amazing.

This was the set.  It was pretty amazing actually, and it was XBOX HEUG.

Ryan and myself, giving a salute to the camera.

Oh and before I go, I got my photos back from the exhibition.  I got full marks, hurray!  It was placed in a perfect spot so it was easy to catch your eye first.  One think I kind of noticed though, out of close to the two years of this course, these photos are the only thing I’m proud of.  Kind of, sad actually.

Right, I have to run off and pretend to do some work.  Please remind me to blog more, I have still a lot more to tell you all!

Today, two years ago I opened this blog.

Two years! It really doesn’t feel like that long.  The more I think about the more crazy I think it is about how long I’ve been about on youtube, and just how it’s literally meshed into my life.  I’m only specifically talking about youtube because this blog is kind of just an extension of my youtube as 99% percent of you that read my blog know about me from my youtube ways.  The amount of people, knowledge and experiences that have came out of it all, it’s just overwhelming and I’m so happy that everything turned out the way it has.
In a couple of days it’ll be 2 years since I posted my 500 subscribers video.  In 2 years (excluding my first account), I’ve gained an audience of over 31,000 people since that video. That’s fucking, insane.
All I can hope is that I can continue to do what I do and just enjoy it as it goes! [/soppy]

Oh and if you don’t know by know.  I’m doing a VEDA (Vlog Everyday in April), on my secondary account adaminsixtyseconds.  All my videos are still obviously 60 seconds or less, but it’s great to actually break into the account from after a year of registering it!

So I promised I’d show everyone my final photos for my photography unit in school. Here they are:

Yeah. You probably weren’t expecting those.  My theme was ‘Landscapes with a Corpse’, based off Izima Kaoru, who’s a high-fashion photographer that takes photos of (pretend) dead girls in expensive clothes.  What do you think?  Which one do you like the most?

FYI, this is going to be a long post.  I’ll split it up into parts for people who only want to read WG/NYC/MTV whatever.

Yeah.  So all that stress, TOTALLY WORTH IT.  For the very few of you who don’t know by now.  Last week I went to NYC.  Why you ask?  I was special invitation to see the Wonder Girls, a Korean girl band, in America.  Not only did I get concert tickets, but backstage passes and to perform with them on stage.  About 2 months ago Tessa and I made a video covering one of their songs on the ukulele, and JYP Entertainment (the managers and company behind WG), saw the video and gave us a special invitation to the show.  That only happened 2 weeks ago.  It was INCREDIBLY sudden, and it was one of the most spontaneous things I’ve ever done, but I did it.

NYC

I’ll start off with NYC.  I arrived on a Saturday, one of the first things is being jumped on by Tessa as I stepped off a bus from the airport.  From then on we went to get subway back to her home, and to be frank I realllyyyy didn’t have the greatest first impression of the place.

That was the first image I took when I was there.  Lovely.
So after I got used to not actually have any fresh air around me whatsoever, I started to have so much fun!  I didn’t exactly go the touristy places, but I visited near enough all the areas of NY.  From eating American pancakes in a diner for breakfast, weird flavoured pizza and ice-cream in Brooklyn,  a dander about Central Park (THERE IS NO SUCH THING AS CENTRAL PERK I WAS SO SAD.)  flashing lights in Times Square, sneaking into an (incredibly stereotypical) American college, the village, soho, ARGH EVERYTHING.  It was just, great.  I met up with a load of online friends too!  Caitlin, Brad, Ryan, Taige, Jennifer and Liane.  Not to mention loads of new people too.  Despite being there for only 5 days, I managed to cram so much stuff in.  I still feel like I have loads more to see and do, but I’m really happy with the trip overall.  Hopefully I’ll be able to go back sometime in the near future.

WONDER GIRLS

The concert was on Sunday at 7pm, but we had to arrive at 4pm to rehearse and sort everything out.  We arrive at 4pm on the dot, and met all the other people who were invited by JYPE,  and we met Hana, the production manager who was there when we needed her.  We got to the ballroom and were given tickets and practiced for a bit.  What I mean by practiced, was dancing.  Tessa and I originally thought we were going to be playing the ukulele on stage or something, but most of the other guests were invited because of their dancing videos on youtube, so we had to learn the dance.  I only learned the dance the night before (Tessa taught me, it was something I was dreading because I’m NOT a dancer, at all), and lucky for me, it was only the intro and 2 choruses.  Tessa learned the whole dance, but she’ll get her own back later on, if you keep reading.

There was a Korean documentary being filmed about the Wonder Girls tour to America, so we were recorded practicing and we were interviewed.  We saw wonder girls practicing and we all sneakily ran up to the side stage and watched.  Ye Eun came over and introduced herself, I shook her hand and told her I was from Ireland and she did a double take in shock and then shook my hand again.  Seeing them practice was amazing.

We were scheduled to practice on stage, but they told it they didn’t have time for us to practice, but JYP (JYP is not only the owner of JYPE, but he’s a singer himself, and it was a joint tour with WG and JYP) asked us (he was miced up to the giant speakers so we heard him announce it), and he asked for us to come up and practice.  So we were told what to do directly from JYP which was unbelievable.  He told me he liked my video and my mini guitar, which is just, bless.
So we practiced, and we didn’t know the wonder girls were actually were practicing behind us, so when we finished I turned around and saw Sun Ye and Yubin right beside me.  Oh I was right in the centre of the stage too.  It was crazy!
Then watched a bit more of the rehearsals and was escorted out to wait outside, so we all just spoke to each other, and Tessa and I whipped out the ukulele, but were stopped half way to return back in to our seats.

The concert I won’t review on, but the WG were on second (J-Lim was first, and she had an excellent voice) and played a load of amazing songs.  Good Bye, Headache, Tell Me, Nobody Rainstone remix, and others. Costumes were really nice and the set up was nice too.  2PM came on next, and I don’t know those guys are, but I knew one of their songs.  They were REALLY good.  Amazing performers.

WG came back on again, and another setlist.  Hana came back and forth to tell us when we would be going, and then it was our time.  We had really good seats too btw.  We sneaked off to the side and and went behind the stage.  We sadly missed Nobody being played, but it wasn’t that bad because we were able to practice with the music.  When Nobody ended, they played this huge compilation of all the youtube videos, ours was on there!  We all then introduced and the song started playing, and we just, danced.  A few people screamed for Tessa and I, which was SO AMAZING.  The big cheers came is when the WG came behind us and danced along with us, then as soon as it stopped, we all went around hugging them and just having fun.  It was just indescribable, absolutely mind blowing.

We then went back, and sat down for the rest of the show which was all JYP.  It was good, but not as good as WG/2PM.  He was an amazing singer, dancer and overall performer, but something wasn’t clicking, maybe just because he was mostly playing songs from 10 years ago or something.  He played the very ‘ladies man’/sleazy part, and invited a girl on stage, tied her on a bed and the bed rose up, and just kept ripping off his shirts in front of her and just being all cuddly and shit.  He then did a duet with Sun Ye and then final one with the Wonder Girls and it ended with Tell Me.

We waited for a bit, because we were asked to stay, because we were going back stage to meet with them and take photos and stuff.  So we watched everyone come past us and we got a few people coming asking for photos and people complimenting us, it was really really nice of them, and I appreciated all of it.  After it died down, we went up to their dressing room (!!), and just talked with everyone.  I spoke with Yu Bin the most, and it was all just lovely small talk, but I got around to Ye Eun, who was the nicest out of them all I think.  Sun Ye was lovely, but seemed very distant.  So Hee was really cute, and Sun Mi was the one I saw the least.  They were all fucking GORGEOUS. I got photos with all of them (except Sun MI ), and just overall had a blast.  They were so petite and just, aw. Their English was FLAWLESS.  I mean, amazing.  Ye Eun was the best, Yu Bin was great too.  So Hee was I think a little bit nervous with the English.

Ye Eun!

Yu Bin!

Sun Ye!

We then had to leave and we parted ways with the other people.  There was a girl who stopped us for a photo saying they knew us from youtube (photo below), and then when we were walking past another girl stopped us in the street and said she watched my videos regularly and she  really enjoyed it.

Overall it was an I N C R E D I B L E experience, and I’m so happy I was able to do it.

MTV

Tessa and I were also lucky enough to be invited to the MTV Studios in Times Square, for an MTV Iggy special on 2pM and the Wonder Girls.  Just by chance we stumbled upon the line, which was located at the other end of the block at the studio, which was an odd place to line up.  We spoke to a couple of girls, one girl named Gloria and her friend, and another girl who I can’t remember, but she taught English in Korea for a year.  It was really cool to find out the different backgrounds from everyone.  There was a guy who lined up behind us who we ended up chatting who came all the way from Toronto to see the girls.  He actually saw the ukulele video Tessa and I did, and we took a photo together.  I noticed his t-shirt and checked out his website, so if you want to read his review of the day, click me!

Tessa and him were asked to ask questions to WG/JYP/2PM, but to their surprise, their question was already made for them, wrote on a card and they were told to memorize it. Not to mention both questions were incredibly embarrassing and obviously scripted.  They both pulled it off naturally when they said it in the interview though!  After that we were interviewed again, I’m not sure if it was MTV Iggy or another Korean show, but it was fun too.
Soon after that we were escorted into the mtv studios, dropped all our stuff and went to the set.  It was so. fucking. cool.  I couldn’t believe I was actually in the TRL set.  Tessa and I ran off to the very left of the stage, because that’s were most of the smallest girls were (for a better view of course).  It ended up being an amazing view too, not to mention it was SO SUPER CLOSE.
2PM performed first I think, and like I said, they were amazing performers.  So many flips and tricks and amazement to the eyes!  Wonder Girls came on soon after and played all biggest hits, ‘Nobody’, ‘Tell Me’ and ‘So Hot’.  They had to redo each performance 2-3 times, and it got incredibly tiring screaming your lungs out for them.  The great thing was, is that all of the members saw Tessa and I, and directly give us a nod/wave/smile.  So Hee saw us first, then Ye Eun, Yu bin, Sun Ye and Sun Mi, all at seperate times.  Ye Eun looked over to us the most, and I still got the same distant feeling with Sun Ye.  She must have been feeling like shit, or just didn’t want to associate with the crowd very much.

After all the performing ended, the girls had an interview with JYP.  It must have been the nerves, but their English was a bit shaky, especially compared to meeting them backstage in the concert.  JYP also recognized us and gave us a nod too! After that interview, the whole crowd was shuffled back to front, and 2PM joined the rest of the interview.  This is when Tessa’s and aznkid.com/Kevin’s questions were happening.  Once that was all finished, WG/2pm/JYP all came around the crowd and shook hands/hi5′d us all.  Literally straight after that, Hana (production manager from the concert) comes rushing through the crowd searching for all the youtube people.  We shuffle off to the other side of the set and we’re told that we’re going to dance here as well.  We jump on stage and the crowd are all bewildered wondering why are all these randomers getting up on stage.
The presenter was running through her link before we started recording, and Tessa asked me if it was going to be the edited version of the song or the full song.  We dance to the edited version at the concert (which was the intro, and 2 choruses), and I stopped the presenter, who stopped everything and said I had a question and handed me the mic (kind of embarrassing, haha), and I asked if it was going to be the edited or the full version.
JYP replied and said it’s the edited version, so we all went phew and we started recording with the presenter doing her link.  As soon as she was done, the music just STARTED and we all kind of stood in shock thinking ‘..Are we supposed to dance now?’, so we all missed the first few steps but got into it by the end of the intro and chorus. The first chorus ended, and it started with the first verse.
It was the full song.  So half of us, stood in shock again, and kind of just started to.. bop about trying not to look like a complete dickhead.  A few other girls (TESSA INCLUDED), knew the full dance, and continued on.  I think one point I was doing on the spot jazz hands at Tessa’s direction. Awkward.  Once it hit into the chorus again the wonder girls came out and joined in, but we since we messed up, they messed up and it was a complete MESS.  It kinded of faded out from there and we all pretended like we all did great and hugged them all again.  Later on I ended up speaking to the presenter, saying how awful it was and she was just trying to pat us on the backs and encourage us acting as if it was a total mess, but that was nice of her anyway.  I’m probably heightening it up in my head to be the worst thing ever, but it probably wasn’t as bad as I thought it was.  It didn’t spoil anything for me though.  After it all finished recording we ended up staying behind for a bit longer and watching some other fans meet and greet the Wonder Girls.  I didn’t want to go up because through those 2 days, I must have encountered them at least 10 times, haha.  We ended up saying goodbye to Hana, and then parted ways again.

That’s about everything summed up!  This took a good couple of hours to sit and write, so I apologize for any grammatical errors.  If you guys have noticed too, I’ve redesigned my blog again!  Anyway yes, I hope this didn’t bore you too much.  It was an incredible trip and I had to document it somehow.  Let’s hope for many more adventures like that coming my way in the distant future. *fingers crossed*

This is going to be one of the most stressful weeks I’ve ever had.

I have so much to do, and plan.

All I know is that by the end of the week, it will be worth it.

SO WORTH IT.

I’ll tell you all next week.

I felt like my blog was growing dust, so here I am to wipe the dust away.

Hello!
Nothing new much happening in my life as of recently. Work, school, repeat. I have been looking for a new job for a long time now, and I’ve sent a couple of application forms for new places, so fingers crossed that works out. Also, I’m working with the BBC again for a documentary for their site. That’s exciting! I’m always so privileged to be able to receive this kind of work, and some how working in and with the industry without actually being in it full time.

I’m kind of bored of my new layout already. I feel like I want to change every single bit of my layout in most of my websites. Twitter, Youtube and here. I would love to have them all somehow interlinked. My blog and my youtube is somewhat with the same logo, but I want to delve into it a bit more. I’m in need of a new photo as well, my twitter picture is well over a year and a half old!
I do want to make more things with this webspace too. It seems such a waste to have only a blog on here. Possibly looking into putting more stuff on here. An about page would probably be a start. I’d love to know what would go through people’s minds who don’t know me from youtube etc, stumbling upon this site.

I *love* doing this sorta stuff though. As a child, I was always very geeky. I always made websites and loved learning html/css, and overall website design. As time went by I sorta faded away from it, but I really do wish I stuck to it. I only really do designing as a hobby, and it would never be something I would want to take as a career path because I’m not that talented at it, but I do enjoy it.

I may not have a youtube video up for a few weeks either. I’m currently a bit lacking in the production dept in my work. On Tuesday I’ll be recording my stop-motion piece. If it turns out good I may stick it up on youtube, but to be honest ever since I started this course, there really hasn’t been one thing I’ve been proud of. Nothing that I would love to show other people. I don’t know if that’s my fault, or the fault of my surroundings, but I’ll blame it on both.

Right, better run. Cya!

It’s been going about the blogs I read, and I want to do it!

My thoughts on my skype contacts.

*We’ve spoke in group chats but I don’t think I’ll ever talk to you one to one, and I’m sure you feel the same way.
*We’re one step away from being really good friends but I know you’re holding something back and I’m pretty sure I know what it is.
*You’re great, and we haven’t spoke in ages, but I can’t help but be slightly upset after finding out what you said about me.
*I would love to talk to you more often, but I feel somewhere down the line our opinions would clash.  I appreciate you a lot though.
*I don’t think we’ll talk often but you’re cool.
*You’re really cool, and give great advice.  We should speak more often.
*I don’t think you like me very much anymore, or you’re indifferent and things may change in the future.
*We don’t talk much, but we both appreciate the conversations we do have.
*I want to make out with you. badly. srsly. hot. omg. ugh. *dies*
*You are awesome, need to speak more often.
*We match.  I hope we can be friends for as long as physically possible.
*You’re great, again, don’t talk as much but you’re great.
*You kind of overwhelmed me at first, and at first we had a kind of daily conversation going, but now it’s just dead.  You’re cool though!
*You’re cool, but we’d never be friends.
*What we have is good and I hope it stays that way.
*Don’t know you.
*You’re great, and I enjoy the conversations we have.  Didn’t think you would have liked me at first, but you do, so hurray.
*Friend of a friend.
*You’re my best friend.

So it’s 2009. Looking back in reflection, and in reflection from my last post, it’s been a bit of a mess.  There were high points, like the vast media oppourtunities I’ve been able to do, JAPAN, new music and meeting new people.  Don’t get me wrong, those were amazing, but when I think about 2008 as a whole, it was a really bad year.
I just wasn’t happy.

But!  Things will change. It’s now 2009, and I’m declaring it the year of change!  I’ve started with a really positive mood set.  Thank you everyone for all the really positive messages in my last post.  I read every single one and it was incredibly uplifting, thank you.  I really wasn’t at the best mood there, and things have simmered down a bit.  I didn’t hand in my notice, but I’m going to see how I’m gonna cope within the next few weeks.  There is only one thing that’s keeping me back from quitting, and that’s my driving lessons.  I need to finish and pass before I do anything, even though I’m not going to own a car or probably drive within the next few years after getting it, but it was pressure from my parents needless to say.  It’s £25 a week, which really adds up after a while.  Bleh.  January will be pretty slow anyway, which is what I need.

Buckling down and catching up on school work is my main priority.  September-December in school was so, disgustingly bad.  There has been one teacher I’ve only submitted little to none to her.  My favourite teacher (which I was also very far behind on) left, so now I’m going to get a new teacher (or possibly more than one) for his subjects, and it’s going to be awkward to explain to them how far behind I am in.  I’m not even the worst one in the class for doing this either!

My blogTV shows are coming back this month (more info later), and I’m also going to get back into the swing of things with videos.  The thought crossed my mind to start a collab channel, to get that weekly thing going, but I can do that by myself on my own channel regardless.  So I’m probably going to open Ask Adam back up again, but change it up a bit. I’ll see what happens.  I just want some form of order back into my life, haha.  Speaking of videos, I have a new one coming up in the next few days..

Why am I all dressed up?  Why am I showing a particular album cover?  Wait and see!  Yay 2009!

I’m back spacing a lot on this post.  I don’t know how to put things right into words.

After arriving home from boxing day sales (working of course), I think I want to quit my job.  Today gave me a really horrible reflection over how depressing and cynical I’ve turned into.  Even looking at my tweets you can tell what kind of spiteful bastard I am.
I really really hate it.

It’s a mix between stress of work (especially over this holiday season) and stress with school that all this..bitterness has just came flowing out.
How can I be this way at 18?!!?

If you haven’t gathered already, I’m very sensible.  I don’t drink or go out on any wild nights out, and I’ve been working part time nonstop since the day I turned 16.  I’ve been juggling work with school, filling up work with all my holidays off school, and everything else in between.  I don’t know why after 2 and half years of working every weekend and at least 2 times a weeknight, that I’ve only turned into the state I am in now.  I don’t know how I’ve lasted so long.

I’m just tired.  Right now at this moment I’m so exhausted, but overall working I’m just tired.

I’m sitting on the fence now.  One half is like:
STFU and suck it up.  There are people in far more worse situations and you should be grateful over the fact that you can earn good money independently.  There are also people in the exactly same situations who started working young and are still working and juggling school and being happily content.

The other half is:
You’re only 18, and you have the rest of your life to work.  You should enjoy your last years in school and being a lazy teenager where you don’t have to pay for fees in school.

I don’t know.  I feel like I want to just quit it all, but the sensible side of me is stopping me for having such a good position I’m in.  …but it’s not good if you’re becoming unhappy over it.

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2009 has to be a year of change for me.  Whatever I do choose for my job status, I hope that I can stop being so unhappy and be more positive with my life.  What makes you happy?  Maybe I can take some ideas from all of you.

This post is on the edge of being far too personal to be put up on the internet.  Also, I’ve noticed I always tend to blog (or write in general) when there is something wrong.  That needs to change too.