my pc exploded last night.
I’ve lost all my files, normally I’d be fine with that, but all my youtube original video files, all my music, my SCHOOL WORKKKKARGDJAGahgdkajfiodksafjihdaouehwalkgeorapg;rlo
This is really bad. I don’t know what to do as there was a lot of files I need, really badly.
I’ve had this strange urge to tell everyone what I’m enjoying at the moment.
First of all:
PUSHING DAISIES
*contains spoilers*
This only came to the UK a couple of weeks back. I never watch TV (I haven’t sat down and watched TV on purpose in I’m sure over a year now), but yeah I heard a lot of hype so I decide to watch the first episode online. To be fair after watching, I didn’t like it that much. I don’t like overdose of quirky because that’s the in thing at the moment and it’s going to die a horrible fad, but it was very pretty. I love colours, but the story just seemed a bit iffy for me because you’d just KNOW that they’d end up touching, yadda yadda etc.
I decided to watch the second episode last weekend, and I REALLY enjoyed it. I figured out that the first episode was lacking a lot because of the lack of other characters. The side stories also, really added to it too. I just loved the fact that the more you got to know the characters, the more you found out how unusual they really are. A private detective that knits and popup books? A waitress who used to be a champion horse jockey? It’s amazing.
Yes, and after that episode I decided to watch the whole series online. Whoops. It’s sucky about the whole writers strike thing, but I felt it ended at a good enough series finale, given the circumstances.
Another thing, Anna Friel is in it!! The lesbian from Brookside!! The Irish girl from Watermelon!! hahahah. I always used to think she was actually Irish, but she’s just really good at accents. She fooled me!
On to the next thing:
SIA
I’ve been a fan of Sia’s since her ‘colour the small one’ days, but only about a month or so ago that I picked up her latest album. I was annoyed at the fact that there were two versions of the album covers. The US got that image up there, and UK ended up getting this:
No fair! Anyway, I picked up her album (it had the US cover at the opposite side of the UK cover which I was happy about), only because I was bored in school one day and accidentally found out she was touring. In Ireland. On the day that I discovered it. I was SO annoyed, because she was playing in Dublin (which is down south, and I live up in the north), and the fact that it was over 18s, so I decided not to go because I didn’t want go down all that way only to be turned away. I later regretted it, because I obviously can pass as 18, and even if I got turned away I could always use the ‘I CAME ALL THE WAY UP NORTH TO SEE HER PLEASEPLEASEPLEASE’. Another thing before I go back to topic but I don’t get bands who do world wide/Europe tours and only put one date in Ireland. All the northerners usually have to go down south or vise versa, always perform both, or more! There are lots of places in Ireland to have gigs.
RIGHT YES BACK TO THE ALBUM. It’s amazing. One of the best albums I’ve heard in a while, each song is epic in large proportions. She has such a beautiful, interesting voice that I could only wish to hear live. I really reccommend you check her out, and by that buy her album! Trust me, if you ever see it in the shops and you have money on you, get it. Trust me.
That’s all I really wanted to say. I’ve did nothing all day when I should have done something but I’m going to be busy redrafting assignments tomorrow. If I get any ideas within the week, I’d like to try make a video on Thursday, don’t hold me on that though.
For everyone else who isn’t Harris, Harris used to subscribe to my videos, but recently unsubscribed because I wasn’t replying to his messages, I’ll get to my reasoning later on. You/He still reads and comments on my blog [from what I believe anyway], but he/you left a comment a couple of hours ago. I’m just going to go through it.
“You don’t open your messages at YT, you don’t reply to comments there or here. Possibly you feel your videos should satisfy your subscribers, and to some extent they do, but only so far. Maybe when you began posting videos at YT you had some idea where the effort might take you. Maybe now you’re not satisfied with where you are or what you’ve gained. Again, I’m not sure. ”
I’d just like to say before I start this, is that I read everything, every single thing. I can’t stress that enough, I read every single comment on videos, read every comment here, read profile comments, I read all messages, I watch videos that even have me tagged in the videos tags. Even with my myspace, everything, and you don’t know how appreciative I am about it. The fact that SO many people out there actually give two flying fucks about me is something to be amazed at and I’m so grateful for that.
No, I don’t usually reply to messages on YT, mainly because I get a lot of mail, and the mailing system is terrible. I don’t reply to comments here because there is no replying system without me clashing up the comment section with my own comments.
In regards to my videos satisfying my subscribers. When I started making videos I had no intention to cater to anyone else but myself. My sole reason wasn’t to get everyone to watch my videos, it was for me to express myself on however I wanted to. This is why I’m getting so complicated with video making, since I now have a hefty amount of subscribers, I feel like I have to cater more to them and not myself, and 90% of the time they want me to be all quirky and cute and talk in that little accent on mine. I’m NOT saying that’s a bad thing, but doing that forever doesn’t express myself? No, it’s almost a big act, and people don’t get to know the real me. My video ‘First Impressions’, at this present time one of my favourite videos I’ve made for myself, because it really did represent how I was feeling, but many people didn’t seem to get it, or didn’t like the way I was going with it. I’ve already explained that video to death anyway.
“Maybe you hoped to connect to more people via the internet, but you’re learning that there’s a big difference between contacting and connecting. You’re contacting a huge number of people, but maybe you feel you’re not connecting with many. You’re a swell guy, very talented, intelligent of course, and a disposition that makes you a good friend. So what’s wrong with that? Not one thing.
I’ll make a suggestion, that’s all it is. I’m no guru and don’t have the answers, obviously. But take a chance. Try to spend the next 30 days spending more time “connecting” with your subscribers. Open their messages, read them - at least the reasonable ones. Even if you don’t reply to them, you’ll know your sub base much better. And try to leave more comments to the comments others make to your vids. Interact. Connect. For 30 days. See whether you feel better about where you’re going with this after that. I think you will. ”
I do understand what you mean, and I did used to do that. This is where I’d neatly reference my ‘500 subscribers and post-its’ video. Reaching that point were so many people where interested in what I did that they wanted to subscribe and learn more about me was incredibly special to me, and in return I wanted to do something big. I did get to know everyone, and when writing down all their usernames I did know a lot of them. You don’t understand that if you add another 17,000 people onto that, it makes it so much more hectic. It does just get to the point where you can’t reply to everyone because there arn’t enough hours in the day.
It’s too hard to connect with everyone, because the amount of people that message me and ask me what’s up or how am I doing, or want my contact details, it’s insane. It would be almost impossible for me to connect to thousands of people for 30 days and try keep up to speed with them. It would be having thousands of similar conversations at once and that isn’t going to bring myself across to them very well. I’ve already tested the waters with this idea before, and in some cases I’ve had some threats been given across to me because I don’t respond to them. Even if it worked, it would be rude of me to shun them all away after 30 days, and it would make me more anxious and feel awful if I couldn’t keep up with being their friends.
On another note, look at all my most popular videos, the Ask and Challenge Adam series, the Childhood CD collections, Tayto raffle etc, if I didn’t care for my subscribers why would I bother asking opinions, seeing their video responses and little parts of them and their lives?
“There’s not enough affection in this world. Your subscribers like you lots. Like us back. Give us a hug. Pat us on the back. Tell us when we’re full of s**t. :-) Connect. For 30 days.
a follower, if not presently a subscriber:
Harris”
Again, I’m appreciative and grateful, it’s overwhelming how so many people care. Have a free e-hug on me everyone.
*hug*
With subscribers, I’d rather have people subscribe to me for what they like about myself, than subscribing because you felt the need to or whatever. I have no problem with people unsubscribing from me, I wouldn’t want to force anyone to watch anything by me that they didn’t want to. Subscriptions were set up just as an easy access feed for your favourite videos. Harris, I would never want to restrict anyone’s opinions or choice.
I guess that’s all I really wanted to say. I’m sorry if everything is all over the place, I’m finding it hard to concentrate because my sleeping pattern is up the left and it’s not healthy. I wanted to talk about other things going on in my life at the moment but I’ll leave it for another time.
Hey everyone.
Expect a giant pic spam here, so you’re warned! I don’t know where to start really. This week has been somewhat eventful, based on the fact I went out of my way to break out of my linear routine. On Wednesday, myself and two of my friends (Tye and Becky) went out to take some photos of some derelict building for Becky’s short film. If you’ve been reading my blog for a while in December I made the statement saying I’m a sucker for derelict sites, and I near shit myself when I came across this place.
It’s an old shoe factory, and it’s fucking MASSIVE. Every room I came across I just fell more and more in love with the place.
That’s only one.. room. Well it’s not a room, but it had two sides to it which had an actual roof on top, leading to upstairs places, and stuff. Basically it’s fucking massive. You could also tell from each room what it was originally for.
This was a giant fridge. It scared the living daylights out of me because it was just so concealed and had a thick solid door, and it was obvious that it was used at bed for some guy anyway.
Girls bathroom + Tye. It’s weird how they left the mirror, probably afraid of the bad luck, ahahahahah.
Boy’s urinals. Classy.
Becky climbing out of an fireplace hole, as you do.
We ended up on the roof too.
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I took loads more photos, but those give the gist of it. Just think lots of graffiti and glass everywhere.
In other news, school has been going steady, I’m trying to push myself to keep going because it’s really easy to slip back to where I was. In terms of my motivation and creativity is still the same ever since I posted my last video. It’s getting to the point where it’s irritating me so much that it’s making me down. I keep getting into this situation where I sit and loose track of time. I don’t watch films anymore, I don’t draw, I don’t video blogs, I havn’t watched TV in months (I’m sorta happy about that), and it just leads me to sit here and gawk at the internetz watching the clock go buy. Maybe I need to try that internet detox thing that Bryony/Joe/Tony did. I’ve tried to kickstart my interests, I even opened a new youtube account (which I’ll give out publicly sometime soon), but it just hasn’t did anything.
While typing this I’ve just gone off in a complete tangent. I started thinking more about recent events in my life. Argh. I don’t even know where I’m getting at? What am I doing? It’s terrible to think that it’s my 18th in a couple of months and in years to come and when I think back about my 17th as a year, I’ll just think of the year where I lost motavation and drive for everything, even though I’ve had amazing experiences and oppourtunities that people would ENVY, yet I can’t help but feel just blahggjdkslahgieruoaghdsakjghgrk. Emo rant done.
Before I go:
Magibon met Mari Yaguchi. Excuse me while I go cry in my pillow.
Hello hello!
Thanks for all the encouraging comments on the blog and the video, I really appreciated it. Julia Nunes ended up seeing the video too, which was great. I want to try make a new video within the week, but I’m unsure if I’ll be able to or not due to work, but I’ll hopefully get something planned soon.
I love how so many people thought I was in my bathroom in the First Impressions video. It’s the wallpaper, it’s weird and metal looking, but no I was sitting on my bed, and I haven’t even moved the place about or anything. People just can’t seem to grasp different angles in a room, haha.
Someone from my work today said that there was a song that plays in work all the time and it sounds like me. The song came on and I apparently sound like Peter Moren from Peter, Bjorn and John. You know the guys that did ‘Young Folks’. It was one of the best compliments someone has ever gave me, but it’s not true at all, but even still. It’s like that time where my principal from my old school said I looked like Jude Law. I don’t at ALL but it was amazing, haha.
This blog has no real direction.. SO HERE’S A PHOTO!
I don’t have a fucking clue what’s going on, on my desk. I have a roll of white string. Why? I love how the little burger-bear on my wall de-masculated EVERYTHING in the photo. I should take that down. I got it from Bryony a couple of months ago, she wrote me a lovely letter behind it, and it was supplied with little amazing presents. Bitch is too nice.
I’m still getting used to my mac. I’ve named it Maci, pronounced Makey. It doesn’t really need a name, but if people get to name cars, why can’t I name computers? I’m still not confident to use the editing features on it, but I’ll do it sometime soon.
Right, that’s it. Bae!
I swear to fuck.
That was a such a bad idea. I’m sorry but do people not read the description boxes on youtube?! Seriously. I’m talking about my ‘First Impressions’ video that had me watching a Julia Nunes video called ‘First Impressions’. If you didn’t get the chance to see it, I’ll explain it to you.
This is copied and pasted from the description box on youtube. I even wrote ‘read plz’ at the start of it.
“I havn’t been making videos in a while, yes I know. I said to myself in my blog that I’d make a video on Thursday. I had no ideas at the time and I still didn’t. I took a fuck load of footage, like way way wayyyy too much footage. I sat down and I edited a video together, and I hated it.
Looking back on the footage I ended up recording myself watching a lot of youtube videos. The song featured was one of them. I love Julia Nunes, a lot. I ended up just taking all the footage of me not doing.. anything, and making it into a video. It’s not artsy, I’m just seriously lacking motivation, and I love Julia Nunes. I hope I get back into the swing of things soon.”
It was me, watching a video on my bed, mixed in with the kind of clips you take you before and after you actually start recording the video. You know how you click play and give yourself a second to start talking, that kinda stuff. If you look on the post below I said I didn’t have any ideas, and I still didn’t, so again half of it was me sitting there going ‘ughhhh I need to do something.’. I ended up talking about something but I didn’t like it, and I thought that me doing nothing was kinda perfect to represent, you know what I’m kinda doing at the moment because I was lacking inspiration. I found inspiration through that, to make the video.
People didn’t get it, well, the most part. The amount of comments I got saying ‘adam, what are you doing?!’ ‘Adam, this isn’t your best work.’ It’s me sitting there watching a fucking youtube video, of course it’s not! Also the amount of ‘Adam you look really sad. :(’ Eeeerrrr, I’m sorry I don’t express emotions when I watch a video. Record yourself looking at websites/watching videos and you’ll have the same lifeless expression as I have.
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I stopped writing this, and started looking at the comments. The ignorance got to me a bit, but looking at the comments there I really shouldn’t be complaining. The amount of nice comments I get is really overwhelming. I shouldn’t really take the video away to someone that did understand that I went through a ‘vloggers block’, just because others didn’t. This must be what Paperlilies must felt when her sarcasm video got featured, but 100x worse, haha.
Morning.
I NEEEED INSPIRATION. SOMEONE GIVE ME INSPIRATION. NOW.
I’ve been falling behind in youtube videos and its annoying me, lots. You’d think I’d be doing something instead of it, but I’m not, srsly. I could do challenge/ask Adam, but I want to save those. The next Challenge Adam is going to be special, I promise. I’ve set a goal, I’m going to make a video on Thursday, but I don’t know what I’m doing. I’ve been going through youtube for hours trying to find some form of inspiration/videos looking for video responses but I can’t find anything. I WILL make a video for Thursday though. Watch out for it.
In other news, I bought myself an MacBook! It’s all shiny and new, it’s amazing. I’m still kind of new macs, so I’m still discovering/struggling with new things everyday. I can’t decide if I’ll make videos from it or not, but I probably will.
I think the rest of this blog I’ll slam my lovely macbook keyboard in frustration of my lack of motivation and inspiration.
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Here’s some of the photos that were taken on Sunday. If you’re dazzled but confused about these photos, read my post before this, and it’ll allllll make sense.
…Now to eagerly await for it to come on TV. dundundun.
